Monday, July 16, 2012

Psychology: Alex Trebek with a Bullhorn

For the past few weeks, I have been in a world-class, impressive, sleep-all-day funk that I can't seem to shake.  Leaving the house is a monumental task that I can do only with promises of a nap when I get home.  Even taking the trash to the dumpster scares me and fills me with an anxiety I cannot begin to describe.  But you know what?  I'm fighting through it, thanks to the weirdest thing that happened the other night.

That's right.  I'm talking about Alex Trebek with a bullhorn.  I had Jeopardy! on in the background and was sitting around feeling sorry for myself (not a good mental health practice, to be sure), and then Alex Trebek started giving a clue by using a bullhorn.  For the first time in weeks, I laughed, smiled, and even updated my facebook status to "ALEX TREBEK WITH A BULLHORN!!!!!!!" because I was so amused.

Since then, I have been able to stay awake for greater portions of the day, but only with extreme effort.  I play with the dogs daily and it brings me joy.  But it no longer causes me extreme anxiety to go outside the house other than the extreme heat I encounter (I hate summer).  But other than that, I am fine going outside.  In fact, I am going to run a passel of errands tomorrow and remain functional.  Although one of those errands is to see my psychiatrist to readjust my meds to see if I can get myself even further out of the funk I'm in and maybe start living instead of simply surviving.

Alex Trebek, if you happen to come across this blog, I would be honored to meet you, but only if you bring your bullhorn.


  1. Emily, you are awesome :) I am so proud of you for facing the funk! (cue James Brown). If you want to catch up sometime, let me know... I'm usually free by 8 pm!

    Lots of love,

  2. So sorry you're having a rough go of it. Hang in there! Sending you love, and mental images of Alex Trebek with a bullhorn. (I pictured him talking to the SNL Sean Connery through it. "That's the PEN is MIGHTIER, Mr. Connery.")